An Ode to be Content: Journal Entry #14
In addition to a lot of really cool ideas, I’ve become very real and really content. I’m so content that, in fact, I’m going to stay this cool forever and start to sing to myself. I’m going to lack any pretense in the face of adversity. I’m going to own my own university. I won’t stop until the kids think it’s cool. If you don’t make it band, maybe you just need to focus on school.
I’m not going to complain to no end, never – never again. Because that’s not how this works, I’m going to let myself grow some bad ass new wings. I’m going to learn to talk, read, and write as I think, but in Greek, and with some tacky new features. Further down the line, I’m going to enroll back into a college to systemically school every dumb teacher – that’s how content I am with myself and keeping it chill.
I be so cool that I’ll just whip it out – till the day I break new ground, I’m content enough to edit my sentences mid-sentence. It de facto feels fine living with the trivial things I desire; I feel a connectedness to more of the same deepdish party pizza. I’m interested in maybe some more Dr. Pepper, the Strawberry kind, but not diet.
This was a journal entry where I simply spent some time writing about how I’m content. I am right now and trying to be each day. I feel like I must become the same in contentment forever because it’s cool to be in this form of something I feel is a natural and normal rhythm.
I’m content in the way of disbelief, in the face of considerable flux throughout my psyche, in the name of each person who ignored me, I’m still content with the way I’m to exist. I’m content the way I have it now made and okay with the way it has to persist.
If I was even a bit any more content, I’d be deeply unsettled. If I didn’t say these words to you, then there’d be no riddle.

“LIGHTHOUSE,” a Creative Poem by Jasmin Ivanković
“Lighthouse” #poetry by #jasminivanković
I’ll have more good days
after my lighthouse knows
My everlasting why,
A vision of its grace
– I felt dizzy looking at my own face.
In a lighthouse in which
I knew the wavelength of myself
Reflected in a mirror,
I keep it as my own home
Of sacred knowledge as a seer.
Made of a syndrome,
Made of perpetual growth,
Living with long-lasting shadows,
I know all these from my ceiling*,
I know these things for myself.
I felt this day has an interpretation,
Seen quintessentally
From the same eyes
My father had,
I had then decided
To draw from my current need,
The first highest,
By no means of passing control.
When I knew it could never end,
So I’d never let
Anyone find their way in,
But I’d show you
How quickly a spell
Made by Locusts, can.
I guess they, too, have felt
My dispare,
I saw it in MY mind,
Maybe it is the case,
It’d take a fire in the soul,
To lose every person
Who spoke
With a shallow speak,
And you wouldn’t know
The joy I lost on the way
Of each “don’t care;”
I made the lighthouse of myself,
A self to be,
A shell of my own boundaries,
The inner ring of me.
I never did find in them, forgiven.
One thousand Baclavas,
I’ll forgive you.
You, too, shall know
That is what gives
To my life each day
Was still found within
On the day of transformation
– I felt a heavy breath,
Casting the formulation
Of an encapsulated Doxastic (from a δόξα)
Logic to a realistic end.
This lighthouse explains the mind,
Do you have to mention the unmentionable, my friend?
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