Do you stay warm under your electric blanket, or do you so choose to put on clothes in the dark? I’ll ask her to turn on the light, and we’ll both adjust enough to wake up? Do we decide on clothes that show that we are together?
I’ll write her a better song, I hope it is my best. I’ll prove it’s not over (when things get hard), I’ll take a limit to the test. I’ll demonstrate how to respect S. the world over.
“Three Vows for 2024” – Journal Entry #13
I vow that, from now on, I shall take into consideration how much it matters – because it matters to me. I don’t need to spend my time so unhappy due to what it all seems to be; I should live, maybe forever, for the inverse: that I need to spend my time happy due to what it doesn’t seem to be. That this isn’t actually the end. This is probably a new beginning, not an ending (although it seems). It is a new year, and unlike the last.
Further, I vow to help by demonstrating what that means – because it is in my nature. I hope that this writing helps you today and doesn’t take time to circle back. That is to say, I usually do try and help – it is really all I try not to quit, helping those I care about, and at least agnolaging those that are hard to. It doesn’t seem fair to change when it can only often be an option to change. I know it isn’t fair to you to change on yourself – that’s what it is: I’ll always be who I’m supposed to be, avoiding becoming who I’m not meant to become.
I vow that life is usually getting better but never getting worse – because I’ve lived through a lot of dedicated effort to get through it, and nothing is going to change that. Nothing can take back effort already put in or lessons learned – that’s learning to the human psyche, when nothing can really override what’s become of us since, either. The psyche is what doesn’t leave when you fall asleep at night but has tendencies of becoming a face to a philosophy attached to every part of your dream. It’s the voice there in your body when you wake. It’s the love behind the identity that says you’re in love with her, whoever she is today.
Yes. I believe life is now okay.
– J
Journal Entry #6
The one thing I didn’t make time for today is now complete – I ate a sizable meal at home with my family.
Now, to discuss the gravitas of today…
Oh, my God, do I love everything about how this project is playing out. As mentioned, I had a studying day. The theory I drew up is GOLD. I’m on my way towards making a design of physical devices. The prototyping will happen on Friday. Tomorrow, I’m finishing up the software prototyping I started like 3 weeks ago.
There is so much to do, so much to do.
Thank you,
Jasmin
Journal Entry #1
I’m writing this to give myself an ‘outlet,’ which is a term I find takes its first breath as one of nuance only to hear it as a recurrent utterence (typically a teachable moment) in each first year composition class – made for my personal anchor, now meshed in long-term memory.
We both probably know I haven’t given this blogging thing the most serious handshake. I do find the nostolgia and skillful attempts at self expression one might attribute the phrase “a great start to life” on this blog. Just know that I both care about and have a passive attachment to the developed relationship I’ve developed on this website – as this is the case for a majority of the things in life: that I both am happy with it (my choices) and would seek out more, at the right time (more experiences).
My work right now goes in many directions. It’s so exciting! I can barely contain myself. I am having really amazing days, and by the end of the week, it is not as bad as before to do it all again (whatever that might mean, lol).
Every Spellbound Voice in Effect 