I vow that, from now on, I shall take into consideration how much it matters – because it matters to me. I don’t need to spend my time so unhappy due to what it all seems to be; I should live, maybe forever, for the inverse: that I need to spend my time happy due to what it doesn’t seem to be. That this isn’t actually the end. This is probably a new beginning, not an ending (although it seems). It is a new year, and unlike the last.

Further, I vow to help by demonstrating what that means – because it is in my nature. I hope that this writing helps you today and doesn’t take time to circle back. That is to say, I usually do try and help – it is really all I try not to quit, helping those I care about, and at least agnolaging those that are hard to. It doesn’t seem fair to change when it can only often be an option to change. I know it isn’t fair to you to change on yourself – that’s what it is: I’ll always be who I’m supposed to be, avoiding becoming who I’m not meant to become.

I vow that life is usually getting better but never getting worse – because I’ve lived through a lot of dedicated effort to get through it, and nothing is going to change that. Nothing can take back effort already put in or lessons learned – that’s learning to the human psyche, when nothing can really override what’s become of us since, either. The psyche is what doesn’t leave when you fall asleep at night but has tendencies of becoming a face to a philosophy attached to every part of your dream. It’s the voice there in your body when you wake. It’s the love behind the identity that says you’re in love with her, whoever she is today.

Yes. I believe life is now okay.

– J